Big News....

Yep. It is official. I spent enough time in a few bottles of wine in Napa to decide that why yes, being pregnant and having a newborn was so fun I'm up for it all over again!! Let's do this thing!

As it so happens, Adam and I are apparently extremely fertile. He so much as looks at me and BAM! There's a baby in there. We decided to start "trying" in February because it would mean the birth of our second child would happen at the end of Adam's golf season. 

While it lands in the middle of my school year, we decided Adam being home was more important. Well, I had the main influence over that. Baby number one was extremely hard on me mentally and physically. Hard to imagine now that she's almost two and so good. SEE??!! This is why people do it again. They forget. They forget everything. Anyways, on top of that, Adam was gone 90% of every day. Throw in the fact most of our family lives far away and a dose of PPD that caused me to want no help whatsoever created a big storm of a hell I hope never happens again. I wrote about all of it when I was coming out of it and I hope one day I can find the strength to share about it all. 

But that's besides the point. Let's get to the fact that we started trying in February and by the end of February some funky spotting was going on so on a whim I took a pregnancy test. I mean, there was no way I was pregnant....right?

Sure enough, that little test showed up a nice faint positive. This was quite different from Adly's three tests in a row that turned a bright blue positive immediately. I called the doctors office to find out the chances of a false positive test. The regular nurse wasn't in, so I spent an hour on the phone with the hospital, trying to convince them I didn't need to come in and that I wasn't having a miscarriage. I mean, I spent two weeks heavily bleeding with Adly, hence why we didn't know until around 8 weeks. Plus, I was so early this time I didn't think there was major cause for concern. I went in the next week for blood tests and sure enough, I was pregnant at about 4 weeks along. 

Knowing you're pregnant so early suuuuuucks. I felt like crap for most of it and had nothing fun like a hangover to blame for it. Then there's the constant, incessant worry. I would much rather live blissfully unaware until the end of the rocky first trimester and then be all like "Oh! I'm pregnant! And I only have 28 more weeks to go! Lovely!" I started to feel amazing again around 9 weeks after feeling pretty crappy, which of course in the twisted world of pregnancy is never a good sign. At 11 weeks I was a nervous wreck as we went in for our next ultrasound. As soon as we saw inside, that little baby was a kicking and a punching, which put my mind at ease....for a week.

Then we went to Mexico and I felt soooo good, I just couldn't believe I was still pregnant. So by the time I made it to my 13 week checkup, I was convinced something had happened. I mean I didn't feel pregnant in any way. I could've easily been drinking my way though Mexico, dancing the night away (until 10pm because oh my God I cannot stay awake!!)  Sure enough, she found that little heartbeat be-bopping away immediately. It's just another reminder that this time is no different. We pregnant ladies are all CRAZY, no matter how many times you've stepped into the ring. 

Now comes the waiting game of finding out the sex. This is our last and final child and I want to know more than ever. With Adly, I had a feeling of her being a girl from the moment we found out. It was just this weird feeling. This time, I'm not having a strong feeling either way. Some days I feel it's a boy, some days I feel it's a girl. However the other day, I came home from work and Adly was feeling quite snuggly. She leaned up against my stomach, rubbing it saying "Mama got a baby in her belly. Adly be gentle." These sayings are all normal. Then she whips out "mama got a brudder in her belly."

I'm sorry, WHAT!?!?

Never before have any of us mentioned her possibly having a brother. If anything, I'd expect her to say sister since we always call her a big sister. So either my child is a creepy psychic or its just by chance. But I swear if it turns out to be a boy, I'll be watching her from now on out of one eye. Always.

Being a second time preggo mom with a toddler is very different. I can tell poor baby number two is definitely going to get the shaft in pregnancy. I'm sorry in advance child. I'm exhausted most of the time and I have a toddler who likes to "work" on my keyboard as I do, so blogging about it seems to be extra difficult. And the nursery. Or as we call it, the guest bedroom, will remain that. Baby number 2 will be getting the crib from Adly. The one with beaver chew marks all over the railing (apparently we don't feed her enough). And the same changing table and rocking chair. As far as decorating, I'm not nearly as concerned as I was with baby #1 now that I know they'll spend most of their time pooping, peeing, and spitting up all over any decorating I do get done. And the belly pictures...I keep thinking about starting them but that takes work. And I'm kind of burnt out from working my day job and then my mommy job by 7pm. Heaven forbid Adly actually help me take pictures. I mean, what gives?! Hopefully I can get on board with those sooner than later.

After getting through 3-4 weeks of feeling terrible, eating only cereal and toast, and all kinds of nighttime yucky nausea, I've been feeling amazing since 9 weeks. And THAT I can't complain about. But of course, I'm me, so I will find something. You want to know what is the most not awesome thing so far this pregnancy? My OBGYN went over my charts from Adly at my appointment on Thursday (she wasn't the one who delivered me) and as she did, she balked at the size of Adly at 8lb, 13oz, who was born one week early. Adly had been hiding in there. She hadn't measured big, so we weren't prepared for a giant baby to exit me. I specifically remember the doctor going "woah that's a big baby!" as soon as she came out. Therefore, my doctor is now concerned I may have developed late onset gestational diabetes. I don't know, it may have had something to do with the bags and bags of Sour Patch Kids and cookies and ice cream Adly made me eat, but I'm trying not to point fingers here. Anyways, this time I get to take that God awful diabetes test twice! Let the fun begin. It's ok, I'll just keep stockpiling these moments of amazing things I did for them to bring back up when my children are in high school and want to hate me. 

So there you have it. We have officially entered the rollercoaster of pregnancy and new parenthood one more time. We will be becoming a family of four sometime November 2016! 

Waiting, Waiting

Wowie Maui. If today was anything like what the rest of our Dr's visits are going to be like, I'm not excited. In one word I can describe it as: WAITING.

A and I went in at 7:30am to "pre-register". Then went to another office to have my blood drawn. More like, drained. Six vials later the lady was done. Then we went to another office. Signed in and waited. Then did paperwork. Then waited. Then went in to see a doctor. Then waited. Then waited. Then waited. One hour and twenty minutes later, they FINALLY called my name. It took all my might not to do the happy dance and shout, "Its meeee! Its meee! Its really, finally ME!!"

A and I went back into the ultrasound room and finally got to get another peek at our little one. The main purpose of this visit was to get actual dating on our babe and a due date. By now we all know I've been highly undereducated on the process of conception so Baby B's actual age has been somewhat of a mystery to us this whole time. (Side note: ladies, you will HAVE to know your first date of your last period over and over and over again throughout this process. If you do not mark it now and have any chance of getting knocked up, START NOW. It will save you so much trouble in the end!)

Anyways, back to our precious nugget. Oh, how its grown in two weeks!! It is just so mind numbing to think about the changes babies go through while in the womb. It truly is such a miracle. We got to watch it on screen for a while, and it even woke up to move around! We determined that Baby B is as of today 12 weeks and 3 days. Because of my not knowing the actual first day of my last period, our due date is somewhat conflicting. It appears we'll be due sometime between July 10-14th.

Anyways, Baby B was so excited to be woken up, it even put on a show for us. Fists up!! You can take this one of two ways: its putting on a show- fist pump style or our little feisty one was putting up its fists out of frustration from being woken up. Either way, I think its the cutest damn picture I've ever seen! What can I say, I'm biased.

In other news, on New Years Day my belly popped!! A claims it actually popped NYE...when I tried my damndest to squeeeeze into a gold skirt for our friends NYE party. (Mind you, this skirt didn't fit at 9 weeks). But hell hath no fury like a pregnant woman who is not ready to admit some clothes just don't fit anymore. So, A grinned and beared it as he put all his might into zipping the skirt 1/4 of the way up. I then took my nylons (which were beyond suffocating) and rolled them over the skirt to cover up the enormous gap the unzipped zipper was now causing. It was incredibly uncomfortable and I instantly regretted wearing it as soon as we arrived at the party. But of course, by then it was just too late. 

Anyways, NYD morning, I was still wincing from the pain of stuffing myself like sausage into my skirt so I decided to pull out my new maternity leggings. I pulled up the top stretchy part mostly doing it just to "see" what it would look like. Thats when lo and behold- I finally noticed my bump! It really doesn't look like much more than if I were just bloated or had eaten like crap for a week straight (which I have, therefore the reason I probably didn't notice it before). But to me, its something. In combination of seeing our little one on the screen- its all just so crazy to think how much and how fast its growing. 

Week 12:

And the surprises keep on coming....

So our first ultrasound was today. This was us before we walked into the Dr's office. A combination of terrified and excited. If you read the previous two posts, I was clearly a nervous wreck. It was a tough week to say the least. I'm not sure I've ever been so worried about anything. But, as of today, my fears were put to rest.

Introducing, Baby Bway!

If you've seen an ultrasound before, then you can probably guess from the image of our little peanut that we are not 7 weeks along as we previously thought. It was supposed to be the size of a blueberry...a blob of some sort. Nope, its a full human at a whopping 10 weeks! As I mentioned in a previous post, I had to have bloodwork done on Monday to check for my HCG levels- to ensure the pregnancy was progressing as it should. I was supposed to follow up with another one on Wednesday--looking for an increase in numbers. Well, the fabulous nurse called me at lunch to tell me my hormone counts were so high, there was no need for further tests. We were definitely pregnant and healthy. A took this to mean "its definitely twins!!" Nooooo way was my reaction to that thought. Turns out, the counts were so high because we were so much farther along than we thought.

I went to Catholic schools all my life. I'm happy for the education I received and the friends I made. What I clearly did not leave with though, was very much sex education. Let me tell you, in the last 8 weeks I've felt dumber than a 16 year old on MTV's 16 and Pregnant. At 30 years old, I had to laugh out loud at some of the questions we asked our doctor. (Don't worry, she laughed too...and at one point had to give a look of "man, I just feel bad for these two").  We're utterly clueless. Now there isn't any wonder as to how we got pregnant on accident.

Anyways, it looks like we sealed the deal on our bundle of joy sometime around the end of October. A true "honeymoon" baby and we couldn't be more excited. Holding A's hand watching our baby on the screen and hearing its heartbeat has been by far the most magical moment of my life.

We can't wait to meet you, Baby B!!

Love,